Crazy lover

Dead and Gone

2009-12-16T21:43:00.001+08:00

The old me's DEAD AND GONE, DEAD AND GONE... yea...

Hey, if u happen to read this darling

2008-12-19T22:24:00.002+08:00

Hey, if u happen to read this, just to letchu know, pls surprise me or get me excited or something can? I am freaking bored. N i have been feeling bored for very very long le. I m happy n feeling blissful but recently u asked wat i'm feeling n i say neutral... Just to letchu know, I'm trying 2 letchu know that i am bored. C'mon, brg me 2 the beach, the zoo, swimming, cycling, or smthing... Is quite easy yea? haizz... N i dun plan actually cuz i just guessed u wldn't much b interested anyway... Even the least physical west coast u also nvr once agreed... zzz... yup, i'm feeling like damn sian... zzz... If u see this, sorry if this post hurts but ya, guess u really shld get that alarm ringing that i am damn damn damn sian... zzz...

p.s. My fun dun mean arcade n movie... n not necessarily karaoke. Sometimes tiny surprises r fun too... yup =]

Hello

2008-08-31T21:51:00.001+08:00

I feel strangely empty and don't know why I'm posting a post now... haha... Perhaps just wanted to make known that i feel empty ba... lol

Sianded day

2008-03-09T11:40:00.005+08:00

Hello people... Didn't get to watch leap year yesterday... Kinda sad but it's ok... Watched Step up 2 which was nice too.... ^^ Anw, I still can have the chance to watch it again ya? ^^

Aihzz... So sad, can't go out today... Cause if I could, I can watch leap year lolzz... Finding myself kinda childish now with the way I want small things... Sainzz... Gotta spend the whole day alone... Again... Duno y, I sorta over react to being alone now... Cuz now that I have company n stuff all most of the time, I realise the sadness of not having it... Don't wanna be back like how I was in pri sch... Really... Anw, feeling kinda emo now so I shan't say so much le... BB^^

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I never meant what my actions seem to mean... N i dun wish to hurt u, just like I dun wish to hurt her... Can't really explain y I'm like that either... N I'm regretting every moment of not meaning what I've said or done that hurt someone... Please don't be hurt... I never would wanna hurt you in any way... I never wanted to truly hurt anyone... I just don't know why I do the things I do... I just can't find a way to make up for the things I do at all... I am so very sorry...

Found this

2008-03-07T09:50:00.003+08:00

× [kiss on the forehead.] = “i hope we’re together forever.”
× [kiss on the stomach.] = “i’m ready.”
× [kiss on the ear.] = “you’re my everything.”× [kiss on the cheek.] = “we’re friends.”
× [kiss on the hand.] = “i adore you.”
× [kiss on the neck.] = “we belong together.”
× [kiss on the shoulder.] = “i want you.”
× [kiss on the lips.] = “i like you.”

& the little things.. [♥]
× [holding hands.] = “we definately like eachother.”
× [holding on tight.] = “i dont want to let you go.”
× [looking into eachothers eyes.] = “i just plain like you.”
× [playing with hair.] = “tell me you love me.”
× [arms around the waist.] = “i like you too much to let go.”
× [laughing while kissing.] = “i am completely comfortable with you.”

& if you were thinking about o n e person..when you were reading this..then you’re in l o v e.[♥]

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Anw, since I'm here le, I shall post some stuff bazz... Aihzz... Went school 2dy n kena sent back... Told my mum I cough till liddat shldn't go school... Sianzz, nearly quarrel with her in the morn... K, I know, my tone wasn't that good either... But damn sianded cuz I 2dy went home first instead of the doctors cuz really feel pretty pathetic... Went home alone coughing all the way, dun wanna go doctor alone... Then so sian, just then when she called, knowing I still at home after so long liao, she was saying maybe I purposely wanna pon school then lie... Crap... No lorhzz... Is really tch see me find me pathetic then ask me go home de lorhzz... Sianded... I was just waiting for darling to wakeup to send me to the doctor's only what... But of course, can't tell her that or she even more angry... Think maybe she kinda jeolous that I pay so much attention to my darling... Sian... Dun like to be alone... Especially when I'm sick... Zzz...

Well, anw, here's some happy stuff... tmr, after my cip, guess maybe going to watch leap years with him, haha... The theme music is so damn nice and sweet!!! Though it's kinda emo too... So wanted to watch it last week with him but ended up watching Jump... But nvm, cuz the show was pretty damn nice, haha... Played around with him about the show afterwards, haha... Made me so happy ^^ Anw, I am so so so so so so excited!!! Maybe after leap year, we could watch horton, or maybe even 10 000 bc!!! See how's the timing first bazz... Anw, enough said... bb^^

Yay!!! I finally update!!!

2008-03-06T20:48:00.004+08:00

Hello people... So sorry, too busy nowadays to update... worse still, I fell sick... Doctor says I'm having flu n starting to be heaty... Lol... Oh, n seriouly, I keep coughing non-stop!!! Wanna know how toxic my cough is? That time when Si Pei called me while i was brushing my teeth, i spit out the toothpaste n went to answer the phone... Then of course, since i didn't rinse properly, I didn't swallow my saliva during the around 5min conversation... Of course, with my condition, I coughed throughout the whole conversation but no phlegm came out... Finally, when the conversation was over, I went back to spit out whatever was in my mouth... It was GREEN!!! TOXIC MANZZ!!!

Aihzz... Feeling pretty emo now... Sianzz... Too much running through my head... Saded... zz... Need company now... Nevermind, hope this lor mee i'm eating now can cheer me up^^

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Roses are red,
Violets are blue.
Just wanted to let you know,
That I miss you~<3
love: your stupid ** face

Still emoing lolzz...

2008-02-12T21:47:00.000+08:00

Yozz ppl... Aihzz... So sianzz... The stupid emo feeling is lingering... Sianzz... Being so distracted and could not be bothered bout anything today... Haizz... Anw, I'll try posting stuff bout my philippine trip as soon as my aunt start uploading the pics into my com bazz... Hm... I gtg try study for my chem n phy tests 2mr le... Anw, happy two days before valentine's/friendship day ^^

Me Backie ^^

2008-02-11T22:13:00.000+08:00

Yo people, me back!!! Haha... Trip to philippine was not bad... It's been quite some time since I've really been with the whole big family... So cool canzz... ^^ Anw, me kinda emo now so won't really blog much... Just thought that I should post something since I'm already here to link my dearest junior, Astra!!! ^^ Anw, I'd post pics of the trip soon ya?

Ohzz... Btw, forgot to tell you all... I'm so gonna act cute for this whole week at least... Haha... It's pretty fun, haha...

Ohzz... Don't worry, me not gonna try seducing any of u gal's bf or smthg, haha... just having some fun lolzz... Seriously, never really act cute in school before, so just wanna try, muahahahaha... Anw, don't worry, I've already got Albert le, haha... I also won't purposely go to a guy and act cute, just gonna try and dress cuter lolzz... Break my coh lorh pattern for awhile lolzz...

Kk, me go now ya? Nitex everyone^^ kisses to the world!!! Muackzxzxzx!!!

P.S. finally ~<3

HAPPY SAD

2008-02-05T22:50:00.000+08:00

Kk, tell you guys bout happy first n u guys can choose not to read bout sad... I have made a new friend!!! Yay!!! I am so damn happy!!! Cuz making friends with this person means the starting of my new happiness^^ Woo hoo!!! Yay!!! hahahaha... I shan't give you the details... Leave you guys in suspense bazz^^

Kk, the sian part is here so u guys can choose not to read it lolzz... I really really very long nv see him le... Though I know I can see him maybe ard 1 or 2 weeks later but still, kinda sad... =( Nvm, Hope to see him nxt monday bazz... N guess we'd be celebrating valentines day 2gth anw ^^ Anw, I know that as long as I can see far enough, I won't feel very sad... Anyway, with loves... Gonna miss everyone too while me out on my philipine trip... bb... =(

K larh, but overall I not emo, haha... =) Signing off... nitex ^^

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2008-02-04T23:19:00.000+08:00

i miss you...

=(

2008-02-04T21:16:00.000+08:00

Feel like saying this to someone but I know I shouldn't so I'm just stating here... You have no idea how much you've hurt the person... You should be ashamed of yourself for not truly understanding the person after so many years but let your pettiness blind your judgement... I am not happy with you hurting the person but since I think I have no say in this, I won't go to you and say you... The person wouldn't want that too... So sorry everyone... Just had to vent out my emoness abit... ^^

Did something stupid

2008-02-03T15:02:00.000+08:00

Manzz... Seriously, I trust my feelings quite alot and they are mostly pretty damn accurate... This time, I really feel she still likes him but he insists that no, she doesn't and says that he knows how to judge people... Tried to tahan and let that feeling go away but no... It stays on... Put it one side but the fact is, it's still there...

Then, ridiculously, I came across this link to her blog while searching for other stuff on google... You know, usually, below the link, there will be some words and stuff giving you content of the blog... Can't help it but to read the capitalised words of his name right? Haha... The message says bout her still liking him... Went to her blog but no more... Guess she deleted it... Saw a post bout a song bout getting over some1... Hope she has gotten over him... Guess she must be feeling quite sad but I can't help it but to feel bad too... Really hope to get to know her... Don't wanna only have bad memories whenever I think of her... It feels weird having a bad feeling bout some1 i duno either... Manzz...

K, anyway, gotta get to the point... The stupid thing I did was I posted on her blog... Lol!!! 3 posts!!! The first 2 was already stupid enough and I simply had to post the third one, asking if she still loves him!!! I must be crazy... Seriously, gta really stop doing things out of impulse... See la, now I regret... Manzz... Feeling kinda weird now... Go his shop later when the feeling's gone ba... If not later he ask me y i emo, then i tell him, then he say he dun wanna tell me anything anymore...

Posting here cuz don't think he will really see this post bazz... He not bloggish... I just needed to vent abit... This thing has hurt me too much and I'm not going to let it hurt me again... Not really any1's fault anyways... Furthermore, so many good things happening to me after the incident... Must be more understanding... That girl's sad too... So no point feeling weird... No more emo days le Keiko... No more...

Anyways, hope to get to know her better as a friend... Then maybe we can all have nicer memories... Lolzz... Me and my naive dreams... But really, do hope... Seriously, I do...

Me So Happy!!! ^^

2008-02-02T12:26:00.000+08:00

Yozz!!! Yay!!! Me blogging!!! Finally feel like typing something... Seriously, I've been pretty happy these few days... Though I still emo, according to sipei, it's alot... But seriously, I am pretty happy... Sometimes, I'm even quite glad that the incident happened... Everything changed drastically for the better after that incident... Right now, it feels as if my darling is throwing heartshapes over heartshapes on me!!!

Haha... I'm also so happy because compared to the previous years of my life, I'm suddenly more focused on studies now... Not being lazy seems easier now... Hm... Maybe I matured? Lolzz... That'd be great^^

Oh oh oh, I'm also being happy doing happy things... Valentines day presents and cards, Chinese New Year card, Birthday cards, etc... Though it can be pretty irritating to do so many cards but seriously, it sort of makes me happy... Love doing happy things for people I love^^

Anyway, gtg le... Meeting him at 2... His friends there too so can't be late... Must go hang clothes, quickly prepare myself and chiong commonwealth le... Hope to blog again soon!!! ^^